It's a long way to the finish, but hang in there, and enjoy the scenery. = ). I am discovering new things about myself everyday.
"when the evening comes we smile So much of life ahead Well find a place where theres room to grow And yes! weve only just begun" The carpenters.
Life is an ongoing process and the results are never clear. I have accepted the fact that I will probably live most of my life wondering, questioning, and hoping, but never finding an answer. Coming to terms with such ambiguity is something i'm working on everyday. It's not a pretty sight but its the honest truth. I'm falling over my words, ideals and beliefs. I always do a double take cause the very roots of my core ideology is not something that is concrete. It's just something that I have come to realize.
Past few days, a lot of thoughts have been popping into my head.
I seriously realize that people's first impressions of me are skeptical. The lame jokes I tell, The things I talk about, and my very demeanor can be cold and sometimes a bit blank and melancholy. But I hope not all people view me that way. If you wanna get to know the real me, I suggest you hang out with me, or better yet talk with me. I accept my character flaws, which there are MANY of. I am trying to improve on who I am but the road is tough, and I'm still just a kid, and don't forget. "Being grown up isn't half has fun as growing up."
Other than that, just a rush of emotions. I'm a pretty tactile guy, and I tend to keep emotions separate from my better judgment. But usually, I always tend to rely on emotions more heavily in the long run than rational thought. This works against me in two ways. 1. I absolutely lack the ability to express my emotions in a cohesive manner. 2. I get nervous as hell. I don't want to write to in-depth on this as my heart and my mind aren't in the same place yet. Bite my tongue and refrain from speaking, rather uncertainty makes a fool out of the man who is clueless.
"It is love, not reason, that is stronger than death." - Thomas Mann
A machine with a doll
face mimics images on television screen in search of a satisfactory
visage. Doll Face presents a visual account of desires misplaced and
identities fractured by our technological extension into the future.
Give this video some thought, and IM me about it. Let's talk. = ) Today I have Learned: "To laugh often and love much... to appreciate beauty, to find the best in others, to give one's self... this is to have succeeded." - Ralph Waldo Emerson
